Lost In Beauty-

Friday, December 4, 2009

i suppose today wasnt such a good day
i didnt feel really good

today i had dance practice in my house
and later more ppl came
not only that
there were even unexpected guest
i felt pretty shocked
i dont really have so many ppl in my house normally
its really too many
i hadnt felt well ever since
jiamin was the first to realise
the reason is because i felt rly scared
to me its like
my safest place to me
has been invaded
i didnt feel safe at all
not even a teeny bit
and from being scared
i became paranoid
all of u made me feel that
i could land in trouble any time
the whole time in my house
i was only thinking wad trouble would come my way
and then when 2 person had to disturb each other
im the middle person and im in the dilemma
either way both would be upset
im really tired
and when we were all suppose to leave
why didnt u all just listen to me?
is it so hard to just pack leave together?
im sorry i got angry
i really am
i nvr wanted to snapped
but i was at my wit's end

but thank god
shuting lifted my spirits
i went pasir ris cathy watch new moon with her
turned out there wasnt anytime left for us to catch the 2.15pm slot
so we took 4pm
damn we wanted to try the couple seats
but nvm its ok
the movie is ok ba
after everything ended
she lent me a listening ear
after saying all my troubles
i felt better
much much better~
thanks a lot shuting ^^

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